Lucky Clover

I sit in my room
I should pass the broom
But it’s just a way
To procrastinate

I make bad choices
Blank out the noises
In my head – telling me
To get out of bed

Chorus:
The same problems
Every day
Are they really problems
Or is it me not being ok?
The same problems
Make them go away
Let me be happy
So I can stay

I spend the day
Just waiting away
Not knowing where to start
Not feeling smart

Where is my energy?
Where is the better ‘me’?
How can I start over?
Where’s my lucky clover?

(Chorus)

Bridge:
I’m sick of it
Sick of this sh*t
Sick of myself
Sick of being someone else
Gotta be me, do me
Laugh with my roomie
‘Bout all those dark thoughts
And complaining about-
What are we complaining about
It’s nothing, no big deal
Just anxiety that rolls the wheel

The same problems
Every day
It’s up to me alone
To make them go away
And I stay
I will fight
I am smart
My choices bright
And I’m alright
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Another song that was written quite quickly and randomly earlier today. Nothing fancy, just me messing around with a guitar and some thoughts.

Have a great day!
Kejruna

When your friend randomly falls…

We walked
The streets for hours
And talked
Through the night

But then
When we passed the church
You fell
And got hurt

You went down
On the ground
And it made
A dull sound

I was shocked
But you said you were alright
And that was when
I lost the fight

I burst out laughing
I couldn’t stop
It was so funny
How you had dropped

But I’m sorry
I really am
For laughing although
You hurt your hand
I’m sorry
Believe me, man
And please forgive me
I hope you can

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I am aware of the bad quality of this poem :) – it was actually a little song I quickly wrote for a friend. She had a little accident last time we met and I wanted to apologize for my reaction… (don’t worry, she’s ok, and she laughs about it, too – I even have her permission to put this up here)
I just thought you might be able to relate to those situations where you just can’t help but laugh…

Also, why not start the New Year with a bit of randomness!
Kejruna

Time flies by

Now look just how the time flies by,
Your eyes drift high up in the sky,
The end seems near,
But not yet clear…

You move, you float, you run,
Wait for the final pun.
What’s it gonna be?
Will it set you free?

Time flies by, yes time keeps flowing,
And your fears keep on growing.

Free from pain and free from sorrow,
Free from fearing each tomorrow,
Look just how the seasons change,
Don’t you think it’s slightly strange?

Is it tearing you apart?
Or is it just a brand new start?
Is it good, or rather bad?
Are you happy, are you sad?

Time flies by, yes time keeps flowing,
And your fears keep on growing.

Kejruna

Pretending

You’re alone. It’s what you’ve always been                  
There’s nothing else that you have seen                      
You pretend to be strong                                                                
And try to go on                                                                                

You’re proud and you don’t want to admit
That it’s the ground that you just hit
You pretend to be strong
But you (just) can’t go on

While your face remains a mask of steel     
Your soul doesn’t know how to feel
The sadness seems to crush your heart
And piece by piece you fall apart

Still you’re fighting for your pride
But no one’s there right at your side
You pretend to be alright
But inside you lost the fight

Others tell you to be glad
For opportunities they never had
They don’t get what it does to you
They never walked in your shoe

While your face remains a mask of steel
Your soul doesn’t know how to feel
The sadness seems to crush your heart
And piece by piece you fall apart

People still want to cheer you up
Even though you asked them to stop
You don’t want to hurt them but you can’t stand
Seeing them all walking hand in hand

It hurts and it gets harder to hide
That you need somebody at your side
But you don’t dare to admit your fall
So once again, you swallow it all

While your face remains a mask of steel
Your soul doesn’t know how to feel
The sadness seems to crush your heart
And piece by piece you fall apart

In the end you cannot fight anymore                            
Your will is crushed, your heart is sore

Kejruna

One of these days

Sometimes I just want to get away.
Leave it all behind and wait and see what life has in store for me.
I want to bury my worries, I want to dance, and laugh, and sing.
I want to tell my stories, be curious about what the days will bring.

Sometimes I find myself wishing,
For brighter days to come,
Sometimes I find myself dreaming,
And waiting for the sun.

And then I just keep going,
Without changing a thing,
And then I just start smiling,
I do have changed within.

Sometimes I think I could do it.
Just run, be free, smile with the sun, and never look back.
I want to fly up high, hike through the woods, and swim in the sea.
I wonder if I am, what I’m supposed to be.

Sometimes I feel my weakness.
See my heart longing for more, my mind drifting away.
I know I have to focus, and stay here on the ground.
I know I have to go on, doing what’s safe and sound.

And then I just keep going,
Without changing a thing,
And then I just start smiling,
I do have changed within.

Sometimes I know I’m dreaming.
My thoughts far away, amongst clouds and wonders.
I’m aware that it’s not real, and I come back to earth
At least I had a break, for all that it is worth.

And then I just keep going,
Without changing a thing,
And then I just start smiling,
I do have changed within.

Kejruna